I’d like to say that I’m not scared. That I am brave enough to do some things but in reality I’m not !
This is actually sad cos there are a lot of things I’d love to do or say but I don’t get to… for different reasons.
For one it’s cos I’m shy! To some this is no excuse but to me it is. It really hinders me a lot!! Looking back now I’m not as shy as I used to be but then I’m not yet where I want to be. I am still shy. I’m working on that though. Cos there’re sooo many things, so many opportunities my ‘shyness’ prevents me from doing. So many fun things. Sigh
Some times, I don’t do some things cos I consider the feelings of others. Not like they care about mine tho. Not like it’s a bad thing to care or consider others.
I worry sometimes and over think things. Like ‘what if this happens’, ‘this could end badly’ and I think of different scenarios. Although there’re good outcomes, I most times listen to the worse cases.
Basically, I think I hinder myself. No excuses!!
People do what they want, whenever but no, not me. I always have to stop myself and I’m not referring to bad things. Just normal experiences and activities.
I find myself doing pretty much the same thing every damn day! And when I want to try out something, my heart starts pounding fast and I get nervous and all.
I’m working on myself. To move outta my comfort zone.